the · insanity · inside · my · head...

so as many of you know i went away on vacation to san diego and then mexico.. we flew out sept 5th and returned sept 15th... we were to spend from friday night until wednesday in san diego then drive over the border to rosorito until sunday (for a wedding) then come back over the border monday morning and then fly home.. while i would love to say i had an awesome time i did not.. everything bad that could have happened did.. so we flew in friday, grabbed some food went to bed.. saturday hooked up with my friend kent and spent some time all around san diego having a good time.. woke up the next morning to find out something very very very special to me was missing.. i FREAKED out.. got the good news however that the missing item was found (THANK GOD!!!) then went to the beach for a few hours.. was able to get some food down before i started feeling quesy.. drove back to the hotel where i spent the next week throwing up, chills, sweating, anxious.. HORRIBLE!!! after feeling this way every day i finally went to an outpatient clinic (and NO i did NOT drink the water) to see what was wrong with me.. apparently i had an UTI that went up into my kidneys.. so even though i was still sick we drove down to mexico where i continued throwing up, sweating, etc.. i continued to feel this way until about my birthday when i was FINALLY able to eat and drink and KEEP IT DOWN!!!! it was a birthday miracle!! my tummy was extremely happy to get through the day without seeing a toilet!! so i basically had the saturday after we landed and then saturday (the day of the wedding) sunday and monday before leaving.. not to mention on top of being sick.. i burned my feet on the hot ground in cali when we were out with kent, i got a manicure done in mexico for my birthday and the next day i woke up and my toe was infected and had puss coming out of it.. let's see while we were in san diego tuesday night (the night before we left) i had a visit from the hotel mgr and the POLICE!! apparently something happened in the room next to us and they wanted to know if we heard any noises or screaming.. AWESOME!! so yeah i want a refund on my vacation and my birthday.. while i didn't throw up on my birthday i still didn't really spent it at all how i wanted.. but i do have to thank eric for flying me out for my birthday and paying for the hotel while i feel bad about getting sick i appreciate the thought and wish it could have been better.. so yeah that is where i have been and what happened.. hope all my other virgo birthdays had a good day!!! Happy Birthday to you all!

Another weekend filled with working.. i worked a double on friday night had saturday off where we ventured towards boston and had dinner at the publick house for beth's birthday.. when i have time i will put the pictures that were taken up.. sunday i was back in work at 7am to work for 12 hours and then i got to come back again today and work another double (7am until 11pm) to be back at work tomorrow for 7am.. at some point i need to color my hair before leaving for vacation so i don't have roots for the wedding.. working all this overtime would rock if when i got my paycheck it would be on top of my normal pay but my company decided last week that we are no longer allowed to take negative PTO which means my entire vacation will be unpaid.. mind you i only accrue 5.23 hours every two weeks.. this is for vacation, sick, any time off at all.. so if for some reason i get sick for say a few days i get screwed because i will have to work about 3 weeks just to accrue the time to cover one day.. i have always had negative pto since when i started here you start at zero.. well the first two weeks i worked here i rolled over on my ankle and lived in springfield so i couldn't drive to work since i drove stick.. so i ended up take two days then.. two months later my dad passed.. i had no time at this point (maybe 10 hours) and they only give you 3 days bereavement for immediate family.. since my dad passed at the cape it took longer for my dad's body to come back to westen mass so i ended up taking up to 40 hours in the negative.. now i have been trying to stay at work and accrue the time needed however i work in a sick invested fishbowl where people are forever coming in sick, sneezing, coughing because they don't want to use their PTO making everyone sick including me who has no PTO not to mention i worked 9-6 at the time so if i needed to go to the doctor's or dentist or anything for that matter i would either need to be late or leave early and of course my boss at the time made sure that i logged every minute i wasn't in my seat.. so anyway needless to say i have 1.23 hours of pto as of friday which i plan to save.. i have worked enough OT to cover the time i am taking off for vacation and not screw myself over.. only an hour and fifteen minutes left until i can go home and sleep.. ok time to go wake eric up

well i am sitting in my new place looking out the window at Neiman Marcus and thinking how much more i have to do.. the move went very well.. we were packed and ready to go.. people were late shoing up but when everyone showed up we were able to move very quickly.. i was very thankful for everyone who helped and we treated them all to beer and chicken bone.. unfortunatly we weren't able to get both couches up into the apartment.. only the little couch fit so we need to buy a recliner (which ironically is what i wanted) and some end tables and an area rug. we also need to go buy some food and unload all the boxes.. the part that really sucks is my family is getting together for a family reunion and i don't even think i can make it :( i have too much to do and we are leaving for vacation inunder two weeks and i don't know where anything is yet! i don't even know where my shampoo and condition is and we had to go out and buy more last night... not to mention i am strapped for cash since i had to pay so much to leave JWH. At least the stress of moving is SOMEWHAT over.. i still hate not knowing where my stuff is.. i took some pics of the new place last night.. you can see them here http://picasaweb.google.com/saunders.kristina/NewApartmentPics oh and did i mention we have FIOS?? and i have to say the picture does look incredible.. we watched LOTR last night and it was awesome!! Ok now that i have babbled on about things no one cares about i am going to go unload our kitchen.. will update again soon

well moving is coming up in a few days.. i am stressed about money.. i am hoping my paycheck is nice this time around and i can afford to pay off everything so the next paycheck i have i can use a big chunk of it for vacation.. i am also stressing about something i really need to get over but i can't seem to let go.. it's ridiculous to worry over and i want to stop but i can't help it.. girls are evil and don't care who they hurt and i refuse to get hurt.. i HATE girls who seem sneaky.. i don't know why i am dwelling on this but i am because i am of course over-emotional especially right now.. not to mention i never really get to see eric because he was oncall last weekend and works overnights and with me on first i basically go to bed when he's getting up and by the time i get home he is sleeping.. weekends have been so busy and of course he is going to want to spend time with friends and of course we need to fit family in.. i am counting the days until vacation.. to just be able to get away from work and get to spend time with eric wil be awesome.. i think i need some good reassurance right now and the anxiety to stop.. what's wrong with me?? :(

well this is my second night working overnight.. nothing like trying to keep your eyes open at 3:43am when i am normally sleeping.. oh and did i mention i am not only working overnights but doubles as well.. so let me break it down..

mon 7a-3p
tues 7a-3p
wed 7a-3p
wed/thurs 10:30p - 3p
thurs/fri 10:30p - 3p

friday 3p - leave work to go collapse at home

so yeah.. i can say that i have worked two overnight doubles in a row. i can also say i will never do this again.. i still have 11 HOURS and 11 minutes until i can leave.. is that math right?? ohh who cares.. my neck hurts, my eyes hurt, WAHHHH but vacation should be fun!! flight is booked, hotel is being booked (in Cali our hotel in Mexico is all set) and i will get a nice week away from work!!

oh did i mention we get to watch G4 all night... now that is some quality tv at 4am..

oh man..

/falls over

So what is going on with me?

ok well first eric and i found a place in natick that is .7 miles from work.. i made a post about this before but we have officially been approved and will be signing the lease shortly.. move date is august 22nd. any help is appreciated and i will be providing food and beverage for people who help.. there isn't much to move. i am selling one of my couches to my sister and using that money to buy a recliner.. so we'll have a love seat and a recliner.. i have ideas on what i want the new place to look like and this is the first time i have had ideas on how i want to decorate since i am not very creative but i want to have a bunch of pictures around the place, i want to hang the tv on the wall, i want to get glass end tables and a glass coffee table and an area rug for the living room.. i will probably have a bunch of candles as well..

i also am moving positions at work.. my shift will also be changing.. hopefully i will be moving july 14th and my new shift will be 7-3 M-F, i think.. this has changed a few times.. i was first told i was moving june 30th, then i was told i would be able to work 2nd shift but then was told the date got pushed back and i am actually working 1st shift.. just as long as i am moving i am happy!!!

man this day rocks... we got an awesome lunch and now ice cream!!! woo hoo!!

		I will marry Eric Spagna.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Bahamas in our fabulous Shack.
		We will have 4 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a purple Porshe.
		I will spend my days as a Lottery Winner, and live happily ever after.

I think Eric and I might have found a new place to move to in September!!!! It's literally 3 minutes from work and is brand new... they haven't even started renting out yet!! We have a tour to see the place June 21st.. with my new schedule (7a-3p) starting no later than June 30th that means I will be home by 3:15pm during the day AND that means I can go home on lunch to eat (which only means we save even more money) and we are closer to Boston and the T-stop is a short cab ride away! If this place is nice we are totally going to put a deposit down, find some movers and move in Sept 1st!! This changes vacation plans a little but we will still have a vacation 5 or 6 days after we move (a very very well needed vacation) to go to his cousin's wedding and see my friend Kent. I hope everything works out!!